Went to my follow-up psych appointment last night, to see how the Adderall was doing for me. All went well, and I’m glad to say that I’ve lost 20 pounds in my first month. The doctor seemed confused, as she says that Adderall itself doesn’t cause weight loss any more than 5lbs, and while that may be true, when you take the Adderall, it does decrease how hungry you feel.
It has helped so much with my calorie counting. I’m allowed 2,000 (well, 1960 after my weigh-in last night) and I usually eat around 1200 to 1600 a day. The first two weeks were rather difficult. Now it isn’t so hard. I’ve trained myself to turn my attention away from food whenever I start to think about it. When I am eating, I really pay attention to how I feel with each bite. The first feeling of being full, I stop. I dump what’s left in the trash or put it away for leftovers.
And the great thing? I can still eat a lot of the same things I was eating before. Or rather, I can eat at a lot of the same places. Last week I went to Taco Bell on my lunch. Instead of getting a Mexican Pizza, Meximelt, Cheesy Gordita Crunch, and an order of nachos and cheese – I only got the meximelt and the nachos. Rather than consuming almost 2,000 calories at lunch, I kept it under 700. I don’t eat breakfast, I eat lunch, and I eat dinner, and no snacks after that. So far it seems to be working. I know that I’m losing the weight so quickly because I am bigger, and I know that eventually I will plateau. But my goal is to at least get 100 pounds off by next June – though I’m really aiming to have it off by February. The biggest thing I have noticed so far is that it doesn’t take quite as much makeup to cover my face. Does that sound silly? I feel like there is less excess skin to pull my makeup sponge over. My grandma said that she can see the weight loss in my face (I love to have that saggy turkey chin when I put on weight) and that does seem to be getting smaller.
Everything else seems to be going okay. My daughters Uncle’s funeral is Friday. 31 years old and dies in his sleep from a heart attack. It doesn’t even make sense to me. My daughters step-mom is devastated. She and her brother were so close. I can’t even imagine losing my brother.
I e-mailed my bosses wife inquiring about my raise because it has been a year and a half. Finally my boss sat down with me yesterday and told me that they would review that at the end of the year because they looked at the books, and the money they are making right now, compared to this time last year is exactly the same. Everything is going up in price, but what they are bringing in isn’t. I know it’s hard in the medical field. Insurance always wants to look for ways to not pay you. I get that. But I have busted my butt for 4 years here, and I don’t call out sick, I rarely take vacation days, and I know the programs in and out better than anyone here. It was a little disheartening yesterday, but he also said a lot of positive things about my job performance. He said the patients tell him all of the time how much they love me, and how calming I am to them. I guess I’ve always measured my worth in money when it comes to jobs. Plus having extra money is always nice. But I love my job more than I love the money, so of course I will stick around – at least until the new year.