This week has been havoc on me. Today I nearly had a meltdown at work. I came in and my desk looked like it threw up all of the paper in the world.
I knew my day was going to be shit after seeing this first thing in the morning. I love my boss, I really do …. but my job duties are so much more than what I make an hour. Don’t get me wrong, I make more money than I ever have, but I also work harder than I ever have. I’ve been there four years, which is longer than any of the other girls have been there. We have watched four or five people come and go and I’m the original remaining one. I’m an Ophthalmic Technician, Surgical Coordinator, when insurance comes back from office visits or exams, or they want to deny surgeries, I write the appeals, I check into why insurance didn’t pay, I call them and fight like hell to get payments. I do prescription refills, testing with our equipment, schedule appointments when needed …. I know that office inside out. And to be told after a year and a half that I have to wait another six months to possibly get a raise? I am just …. So. Damn. Tired. I’m exhausted.
Today we started clinic, and then all of a sudden I have last minute surgery things I have to do, phone calls to make, checking in with retina doctors, calling patients to make sure they don’t want a certain lens for their surgery, meanwhile I’m also fighting insurance for an approval for a new patient, I’m also typing an appeal to blue cross for a denied portion of insurance. My boss is talking to me in my ear like it’s all funny and haha … and I just had to put my head in my hands and really wonder why I am still there. I love my job, I love my patients, and I like how long I’ve stayed … but something has to give. I’m hardly ever allowed to use my vacation time. If you’re sick, you are made to feel guilty about it. I’ve gone into work with the flu and 103 degree fever because they told me it wasn’t fair to the other technician. I just … I don’t know.
Anyway, I weighed in this morning for the week. I’m only down 2 pounds, but I will take it.
Starting Weight: 298 on June 19th
Current Weight 271
Goal Weight: 198
Beginning, middle, and this morning.